Journey of the Heart ~♥~

God has been speaking to my spirit about His Word...the knowledge and awareness that His Word is the very essence of who He is...that it is more than philosophy or wisdom or guidance (which it is), but the very nature of God. It is love letters and correction letters and to do lists that we share with one we have an intimate relationship with. I know wherever His Word is, He is. Still there are times when I want to go my own way and spend my time on other things...so I avoid the Word...because I know all to well the conviction His presence can bring. Yet my soul hungers for His word.

Lately God has been showing me that His Word is fluid. To be fluid is something "that can flow, not solid, able to move and change shape without separating when under pressure....a liquid in the body." So the Word is the life force that flows through the body of Christ. I believe the internet is a perfect forum for God's Word... because it flows. I think there is something powerful with this. God's Word...His presence being sent out into the air waves 24/7...I believe as Christians we should be posting His Word whenever and wherever possible!

"Fix these words of mine in your hearts and minds;tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads.Teach them to your children, talking about them when you sit at home,and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up.Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates,so that your days and the days of your children may be many in the landthat the Lord swore to give your forefathers," Deuteronomy 11:18-21

Most of my life was spent raising my three children. I was a stay-at-home mom for 22 years and have been divorced for 15. My daughter, was a rehabilitation therapist before she was diagnosed with cancer. She is married to a firefighter/paramedic. They have two daughters. My oldest son enjoys traveling around the world and works on generators. My youngest son works in New Media.

After my divorce I tried to pursue a Masters in Computer Education. I have a Bachelor of Science from Indiana University. My goal was to equip adults with the technical skills necessary for returning to the modern workplace. Unfortunately, I became too ill to continue in the Masters program. After years of struggle it became necessary for me go on disability. I live with constant pain and illness.

I had vitek proplast-teflon implants placed in my face after a jaw injury . They were defective, contaminated, and recalled by the FDA. There is documentation that this company knew these implants would cause devastation of catastrophic proportions. In some people it actually ate through their skull and became imbedded in their brain. Within 3 months the implants had eroded the bones in my face and gone through my bloodstream affecting my entire body causing an autoimmune response. The implants were removed after 5 years, but not before the toxins devastated my body.

Most people find it difficult to believe what I am dealing with since I usually have a smile on my face. Trust me it is far less painful to be joyful than negative, bitter, and focused on your pain. I choose to be thankful for what I have and not to be complaining about what I do not have or can not do. Yes, there are days I am sad and lonely, days when I am delirious from the pain, days I don’t have the strength to feed myself…let alone make it to the store if I am out of food.

Yet, with all this I choose to be joyful and content in the Lord. For…the joy of the Lord is my strength. Every day is a struggle, but I will continue to praise the Lord. In His presence there is joy. In His presence there is peace. In His presence there is freedom from pain. Even though life is a struggle, I know I can endure when I am walking close to God through His son Jesus Christ. That is where I find peace, that is where I find love, and that is where I find contentment. I might be crying on the outside, but in my soul there is joy...

“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” Romans 12:12

I try to blog and share when I have the strength. I write two blogs, Bren's Blog and Journey of the Heart. I contribute on HeartCry.